Going Home

For months, I blamed the border restrictions for keeping me away from my home. It seemed like I was going to be having a dry spell in Portharcourt but it turned out amazingly great. I accomplished a lot; I bought a guitar, held amazing classes, started a blog, read great books, and had lots of company in the house, maybe even too much. 

On the 12th of July, I finally was coming back home. I boarded this sienna car by the side of the road as my preferred bus park was closed. The journey wasn't as smooth as I pictured because of this young pregnant lady and her husband who were both fat...making it hard to move around. To top it off, the driver didn't drop me at the preferred location like we discussed making me make an unnecessary stop with the tons of loads I had to carry along. But in the end, I got home safely and hopefully without the COVID-19 virus. 

I couldn't help but notice the humble attempts by Nigerians - hawkers and passersby - made to stay safe. But it was way off. Everyone wore masks not really to stay safe but like an access card to move around as around 95% didn't cover up properly or even at all. The distancing even in commercial vehicles was a fluke, with everybody cutting corners where they can. Coronavirus was now a cliché for the most part. 

 Going home wasn't as exciting as it should have been. This time I was coming with uncertainty about my future and career. I had launched several different enterprises online--a great community, Graphic designing enterprise, and training programs....even though still struggling to hold their own but they were great prospects for the future.

But coming back I was going to be involved in an apprenticeship outfit in a profession that I had lost faith in, that was going to probably take my time off the wonderful online activities and businesses I was already used to and part of. Plus it was going to take away most of the time I would want to invest in other businesses I was already nursing interest for. It just felt like my wings were being cut off somehow.

You see, I'm a very ambitious person with tons of interests. There are like five different unrelated careers I want to establish myself in, not to mention the hobbies I have which need constant learning and time to improve. 

But have you ever felt like you are moving too fast? Like you just need to cut somethings off for a while and just focus on one thing at a time. Well, that was me. I knew I had to do that to make real progress. It's hard really, to postpone a dream for a while for another. The fear of losing that dream completely will always be there. And sometimes you don't even know which one to focus on.

This I believe is where we just have to take a leap of faith. I think we just need to figure out what's best for us at the moment with the resources available, time, and maybe interest. 

Creating a road map for yourself would be the best thing you could do at this point. Set out what you need to be doing now... In 2 years..and the next. 

At each stage, revaluation of how and what you're doing would now help us know what we need to be doing; If we are established enough to begin something new, still trying to stay firm and requiring more time or just struggling to keep your head above water and needing to move on. 

Also, learning to accept that you might fail at something even though it seems to be a winner is great. It takes the pressure of. There is no success without failure... Just remember that. Accept that this is you at the time making your own decisions as best informed as you can. 

I've understood that it's better to risk being the best at something than being mediocre at everything. Opportunities they say comes but once but the truth is some opportunities will always be there. Take your time to learn the things you need to. Wait your turn if you have to but always stay focus on your game plan.

So for me, I know I want to be successful and all, but I've got to put in the time. I've got to walk in my own stride and at my own pace. Right now the said profession is something I still have an interest in, the opportunity is there like never before and my prospects sincerely are high. So I'm going all in, placing some of my dreams on the road map and looking up to God. 

Thanks for reading. If you resonate with what I'm saying, have had a similar experience, or feel like you're in that place right now please drop a comment about it. 

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